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ファンの心境 A fan's ambivalence...

デビューミニアルバムが出た頃からminkが好き。
ちょっとハスキーだけどあったかい声がいいし、曲のメロディーや歌詞もすごく私好み。基本的にメロディーがキャッチーでも歌詞がよくないといまい入り込めないし、同じアーティストでも曲ごとに好き・嫌いって判断してしまう私だけどminkは久しぶりにファンになれそうと思ったアーティストだったからCMとかで聞くたびにひそかにウキウキしてた。それが、なななんと、今日TVをつけっぱにしていたら昼のメロドラマの主題歌を歌っているではないですか!嬉しいような、残念なような・・・昼メロという偏見が払拭できない私にはもったいないと感じてしまって・・・。イニシャルDの挿入歌っていうのもびっくりしたけど、今日の方がなぜか「えええ」度が高かった。これが複雑なファン心というもの?

Mink has been one of my favorite singers since her debut mini-album.
I love her husky but warm voice, and all her songs have something that hits or heals my heart. I'm bascially a kind of person who can't really get into the song if the lyrics don't really syncronize with my feelings no matter how catchy the melody may be, and I always evaluate songs individually rather than in terms of who sings it. But mink is an artist I thought I could become a fan; something I hadn't felt in a long time, so I was secretly excited whenever I heard her songs in a TV ad or occasionally on MTV.
But today I heard her beautiful voice as a theme song for a lunch-time soap! How shocking!! I mean, it's great that she's coming out into the spotlight but why here? I admit that I have low respect towards daytime soap operas, but surely Mink is much too better for that?! I was surprised to know she sang for a Taiwan movie "Initial D" (a teen movie like "The Fast and Furious") but this soap opera is somehow much more shocking... A fan's ambivalence is harder to cope than I ever imagined!
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信じること Having faith
私のポリシーはあくまで主婦業優先だからバリバリではなくマイペースで仕事を続けること。だけどやっぱり仕事がしばらくなければ落ち込むし、働いてる友達が輝いて羨ましくみえてしまう。落ち込んでも頑張ろうって切り替われるときはいいけど、もう一瞬にして自信喪失みたいな時もあって、そうなってしまうと立ち直るのが大変。結婚して幸せだし、キャリア志向ではないし、今一番ほしいのは子供なのになんでこうなっちゃうんだろう。ゴールや目標なんてひとそれぞれなのにね。わかってても無駄な比較をして勝手に落ち込んでたら前進なんてできないよ。妙なプライドは捨ててもっとわが道を信じられる大人にならなきゃ!

I know my priority lies at home and with my family so although I still work, my policy is to keep the load controllable with all the daily chores etc. But I still feel down and worried when I don't get regular job offers and suddenly look at my working friends with envy. It's okay if I can then turn that feeling positively but there are times when I just can't recover from the surge of insecurity. Am I not happy in this marriage? Am I not so sure that I'm not a career orientated person, and that the one thing I want the most now is a baby? Why do I sometimes get so insecure about my life when it's so clear that every person has a different life and different goals that can't be compared with others'? I really must grow up, get rid of meaningless pride, and learn to have more faith in the ways I've chosen.
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もう一度 restart
年明けくらいから仕事にちゃんと向き合おうと頑張っている。
芽が出るかどうかはまだ全然分からないけど、いろんな方面からアプローチしてみてあがいてみようってことで。今までは環境の変化を責めたり現実逃避をしたりでできることもやってなくて、そのたびに後悔してた。でももう始めてから2年たったし、そろそろ気合入れないと今までのことが全部無駄になってしまう。赤ちゃんが産まれたらやっぱりしばらく仕事辞めたいし、そのためにも今努力しないといけない。
ちなみに今日も試験がありました・・・さあ結果はどうかな??

I've been working on facing the reality of my so called "career" this year.
It will probably take a long while to see if my efforts will make a difference but I've decided to get myself together and pick up whatever chances there may be. I'd always either blamed the environment or opted for escapism which stopped me from making sometimes the most simplest of efforts. And all I felt afterwards everytime was regret. But now it's been 2 years since I started off, and I've had enough of my lazy self. I have to change now or everything will be a waste. Wanting to concentrate on being a mum when we have children is another good reason for this resolution.
I just had a registration test today so fingers crossed!
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夢の☆ a dream come true☆

ご存知の方も多いかと思いますがIKEAのPOANG(ポエング)。これ、実は大学時代から欲しかった椅子でIKEAに行くたびに座ってた。日本に帰国してからはそれも忘れてたんだけど模様替えのために来店したときにpoang愛がみごと再発、ほぼ即決で買ってしまいましたたらーっしかも夫婦1台ずつハート大小決して広くないうちで2台を組み立てたときはやっぱり大きいかなと少し不安に思ったけど、軽いからスペースが必要なときは動かせるし今ではリラックスのひと時に欠かせない癒しの家具となっておりますポッ

I'm sure many of you have seen this chair - Poang from IKEA - a wonderful rocking chair I always wanted to own ever since I was in uni. My passion for Poang faded away after returning to Japan but was so easily relit when I saw it again in IKEA Yokohama, opened last Septemberハート大小 As we were in IKEA for ideas for a room makeover, Poang became the central furniture of our new look in no timeSetting two Poangs in a conventional Japanese-size lounge was a bit of an adventure, and yes it did look huge when we first assembled them, but after 2 months I truly think that Poang was the right selection. Its simple structure doesn't make it seem so big and heavy, and it can be moved away easily if we need more space. Thanks to Poang we have an excellent healing point in our own homeポッ
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もう夏?! Summer already?!

ここんところ天気がおかしい。
春なのに、空気は冬、空模様は夏のよう。
地球よ、大丈夫なのか地球

Watching the sky and feeling the weather is slowly becoming a worrying matter.
It should be spring, but the air is winter and the sky summer.
What's happening to you, earth地球?
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